Unbounded Randomness

‘Everything is planned out’ I have heard this term a million times and equally millions times ‘It didn’t go as per the plan’. Human beings are the only species on this planet earth who actually ‘Plan’ their life.   Why is it that only we require planning while the rest of the creatures happen to just live accidently? And the funniest part is, whether we plan or not, Life always takes over. Humans and other animals eventually have similar proportions of populations either failing (dying early) or becoming successful (whatever that might be in animal kingdom). Nonetheless we are determined to plan every step of the way. Right from our careers, marriage options, baby timings, holidays in the coming years, retirement plans, alternative career plans after few years and even to the smallest details of what to wear and what to eat on the daily basis. The weekend plans, the yearly plans, birthday plans, long terms goal plans, short term actions plans ….and it goes on and on…. ...

I hear voices all the time, even though I live in one of the quietest places on this planet. It is quiet not just because its winter time in United Kingdom where the already miniscule population of this country vanishes under their blankets but mostly because I live alone at this moment. My Dolby stereo surround sound system of my husband, my son and in-laws that I was used to back in India is missing and with it the whole of my life surrounding them is missing. The voices that I hear now, are either the heaters turning on and off, light tapping of rain on roof at night, the ghostly steps of someone going up my staircase and my phone notifications. That’s it. None of these sounds really constitute to the world I ever imagined myself in. And yet I continue to live here. I continue to survive. But recently, I have started listening to much more dangerous voices than ever before. They never seem to leave me alone. Not in the day and not in night. These are the voices in...

The day I entered my degree college, I knew it was never going to be the same again. School life was already on the list of my past, already the thing I missed the most!   I would boast to everyone, how my school was the best and how I had the best of friends and the best of time! Well, I wasn’t the only one with the feeling. Everyone had some best teachers, some funny teachers and some totally weird ones to laugh at. Nobody was without a best friend and no one was without a funny tale to tell. After all, you spend 10 years of your life at a place where you grow up with people your age, you are bound to make great friends and long lasting impressions on your personalities. But little did I know, that I had now entered the arena of college life which had even more to offer than I could have imagined in my school. The freedom of thoughts, the zeal and passion of youth and tremendous scope of dreams makes this time the best time of your life. The stage is all set for you, ...

Horray….. its 5.30 in the evening and its Friday! Happiness in the air, party on my mind and pizzalicious taste on my mouth! What an uplifting feeling. I can’t believe I am able to achieve this unbounded, buoyant happiness every single Friday! I don’t need any books or speeches or courses to preach me about mantras of happy life. It just has to be a Friday evening. How cool is that? But the only question is why does it always have to be this time of the week? Is it because I don’t have to do office work for the next two days? Is it because I get to meet my friends? Is it because I think I deserve a break after slogging for the 5 days? Is it because I think I earn good money and here’s my opportunity on spending it on food, shopping or movies? Is it because I know the whole world has a holiday for next two days and so it is almost a festive atmosphere in the air? I really don’t know, but it feels like my happiness is so much decided by the external factors of my world. What ...