Unbounded Randomness

Day 90 or may be 91: Never mind, I have forgotten the count. It was one of those days in the Lock-down, when I had finished cooking, cleaning and was now sitting at my favorite place in the bedroom, wondering what do I do next? Few options slid through my mind, Netflix? YouTube? talking to someone on phone? Playing with my son?........and the list kept going….. I could not settle with any option. All of them had been overused in the past couple of months with no resort to my heart. No matter the option, I always felt restless in the end. And then of course there were other things to worry about like, what’s the count of Corona patients in the world, in our country and in our neighbourhood? What new rules are in place? Who got infected and how? What precautions should or should not be taken? What to eat and how to eat? Medicines? And then inadvertently, I felt I was actually feeling a little sick. May be I had throat pain, did I feel a bit hot? should I check my temperature?. Or...

Its two’o clock in the midnight and I am sitting on my bed wide awake, milk bottle in one hand and a nappy in other. Looking at my baby sleeping peacefully on my lap, his breathing even and deep, I am now assured he is in his deep sleep. I seem to have achieved a momentary break in my relentless night schedule. Limited sleep with unexpected alarms has now propelled me into a highly alert state of mind. You might even say that I am ‘Awakened’. And then a thought crosses my mind. What is really motherhood? Is it about changing nappies on time? Or about feeding the baby enough or making him sleep with your impromptu lullabies? I am sure it is something to do with teaching him the good manners or making him study the best possible courses to ascertain his future.   Or May be not. It has got to be all that plus a lot more. After all, it is the most highly regarded job in the world!   Motherhood….the word   suggests an array of millions of passionate feelings and the f...