Unbounded Randomness

Day 90 or may be 91: Never mind, I have forgotten the count. It was one of those days in the Lock-down, when I had finished cooking, cleaning and was now sitting at my favorite place in the bedroom, wondering what do I do next? Few options slid through my mind, Netflix? YouTube? talking to someone on phone? Playing with my son?........and the list kept going….. I could not settle with any option. All of them had been overused in the past couple of months with no resort to my heart. No matter the option, I always felt restless in the end. And then of course there were other things to worry about like, what’s the count of Corona patients in the world, in our country and in our neighbourhood? What new rules are in place? Who got infected and how? What precautions should or should not be taken? What to eat and how to eat? Medicines? And then inadvertently, I felt I was actually feeling a little sick. May be I had throat pain, did I feel a bit hot? should I check my temperature?. Or...

“I am sooooo stressed, I can’t even eat”, said a young friend of mine, who looked perfectly healthy to me. “But what’s the problem, Shruti?” I asked her. “My results are going to be out tomorrow” she blurted as she trembled by the thought. “So? What’s the problem?” I asked her again, still perplexed. “What’s the problem?? Don’t you get it? That IS the problem. I have no idea what is going to happen.” “That’s good then. If you have no idea about what is going to happen, it is just like any other day of your life. What are you worrying about?” “C’mon girl. The results could be totally bad and then everyone is going to think that I am dumb. Mom Dad will be upset with me, especially dad as he has very high expectation of me.   And don’t even get me started on, Pinky aunty” “Who is Pinky aunty?” I was now confused about what the real problem was. Pinky aunty or the results? “My neighbour yaar. She is a bitch. She will announce the results to the whole society...